Finally I can WRITE

Oh my god, first of all, I owe you all the biggest apology in the world, because I haven´t written anyhting in here since last year!!!!! That´s pretty crazy huh?
Im really sorry, but I have had reasons not to, first of all, it was the beggining of the year and I wanted to spend some time with my family and stuff, second of all, I have been really really bussy with french, and high school, and also thinking about what Im going to do next in my life, because you know I have to study a career, I mean I want to, but I don´t know what to study I have been trying to figure out what can be good for me, but also in what things Im good at, and more important what do I want to live for the rest of my life?, I guess that´s a really good question that I have never really think off until this year, I guess I was a little stupid back then for not thinking about that... but whatever we´re all stupid at some point or another right?

And the third reason I COULDN´T REMEMBER MY PASSWORD!!!!! I have been really trying to login in, in my blog for the past 5 months but guess what? STUPID ME forgot her password, that is actually some of the stupidest things I´ve ever heard off!!! I can´t believe it how can I possibly forget that!!!?? Im really dumb guys, sorry, really sorry, but guess what? Miracles do happen, because my laptop somehow made me enter here today, the 28th, september!!! How amazing is that huh???

So I just wanted to say thank you all, and I´m back!!

I love you!!!!


-Loro


keep spreading the love...

Many, many thoughts

Hey hey hey!
I just wanted to write something before this new year begins why? I don´t really know yet... I guess I´ll figure it out later...
Well I just wanted to tell you guys, that I´vve been doing my best to write something in here, but the thing is I don´t get the words to do it, I mean I have many many good ideas that come into my mind while reading a book, or watching a movie, but I don´t seem to use the right words to express it...
So, since I can get anything from the bottom of my heart to say so.,. I´ll just go ahead and try this:
It goes something like this...
A new year is about to start and I think it´s a really great idea to think about the things I´ve done, the things I´ve been thinking of, the road my mind is taking lately, the words I use, the clothes I use, the way I look, and most important THE WAY I THINK.
I think in this last year so many things had happened, some really awesome, some of them not so awesome, some heart-aching, some smile-making, some tear-dropping, and crazy thinking lately, but the thing is I´ve really learnt a lot, in this 2012, about what? About LIFE, fellows. I mean I´m not an expert I just know that what is designated to happen it is going to happen, but you don´t have to keep looking around how everyone is happier than you, you just have to stand up and get some happiness for yourself.
I think my mind has evolved really really fast, I don´t think the way I used to a month ago, or a year ago, but that's good (at least for me) it is a sign that I´m growing up, and I can honestly say that I´m not a fan of getting acne or change the size of my clothes but I like the feeling, that everyone around me is treating me like what I´ve always have been... ME.
A 17 year old that sometimes thinks more like a 40 year old but loves herself.
So that´s it, I didn´t expect it to be that good, but I'm optimistic...
Hahahaha...
So I'm guessing this is the last time I´m going to write before the new year comes, so I´ll just take an advantage of this opportunity and say:




MARRY CHRISTMAS, OR SHALL I SAY HAPPY HANUKKAH? OR EVEN MORE INTERESTING SHALL I SAY... NOTHING ABOUT IT?
Well I don´t actually care about your religion preferences I just wanted to spread the love, and said that if you have family and friends this is the time to say to everyone I LOVE YOU BRO! I know we shouldn´t do it just because it´s Christmas but I really get to think that some people really needs to hear it :)



and second of all
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Unless you celebrate the new year in some other time it doesn´t matter, let me say it to you because this is when I get to celebrate it!...
It´s been a crazy crazy year.







Thanks for everything and keep cozzy in this cold, please take of yourselfs and your loved ones, happy holidays to everyone! Except those who doesn´t celebrate in this time of the year...







WITH LOVE L-O-V-E (got it) LOVE,


-Loree



Ps: I have good new for you, I passed my math exam, and also I passed French exam and now I´m on level 4 hahaha :D



Joyeux Noel à tous!


<3

I´m back!

It´s been a while since I haven´t write anything in here, so I figured it was about time to come back, to the outer net world, why? Because sometimes I thinks it  understands me better, sometimes it doesn´t I don´t even quite understand him....
So HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I´m back in the game.

Since August I haven´t write anything, but I did wanted to, it´s just I haven´t got the time to do it, you know between school, french, family, pets, and my loving hobby of Reading books, I haven´t made a tiny space to fit my blog in, but I´ll do it later...

OK four months had passed already, I can´t believe we´re almost ending another year so quickly, time is a dangerous fellow I must say we have to take by the horns or other ways he will go out running like a crazy chicken that doesn´t want to get caught.

I think I´ve grown a lot since my last publication, not just because I´m 17 now, but because I think I understand a tiny part of the world wicked ways, I think I´m finally getting the hang of, but it´s OK, It´s still me, I just wanted to stop by take a minute a write something, and I just realised I missed this dude!, haha well, I won´t be missing it again because I´m here to stay but I must say you should wish me luck for my final exam of math, this next Tuesday, although it is really unfair I´m doing it, I have to do it, even If I don´t like it, but whatever, life is unfair, and I dare say a final exam is not so unfair, there are a lot of things worse than that, so I´ll stop complaining...

I just wanted you to know that is almost Christmas, and it is a love time of the year and we should be grate full just for being around, although sometimes our existences doesn´t seems to be so lucky, or good, but we are the only ones who have to power to think so, and to change so, so this is the time to do so, I guess I´m gonna get started right away...

See you soon guys, thanks for reading!

XX

Lore <3

Thinking iin a dangerous word...

Have you ever thought why do they always make movies about a four letter word that I don´t quite understand yet (L-O-V-E)?

Well I do, all the time, and there´s one movie in particular that made me thing a lot when I first saw it, it´s called "Heartless" if you have seen it of course you know what I´m talking about if your not well then you don't know but, there´s a fact: it is a really good movie...

This movie is about a boy that had a mole heart-shaped in the face, red and  everything but he didn´t liked it, (I think it´s pretty amazing, can you imagine? a a heart-shaped mole? w-o-w!) so he always hide that side of his face with his hoodies, and stuff like that, so one day he started to hate himself, because he thought that he would never find anyone who could love for whom he was, so he made a pact with the devil and the devil, made him believe that the mole had disappear, but- it wasn´t, it was always there, in the meanwhile he met this amazing girl and fell in love, and he thought that he had no mole, but he did... well I'm ain't going further because I'm going to ruin the movie for you guys if you hadn´t seen it.

The point is that I sort of feel like him, I feel like no one is ever going to love me or like me for whom I am, I know that´s a little bit to dark to think of, but what if I'm right?.

I think I'm going to rent the movie and see it again I have to see it again to" feel like there´s some hope for me I don't wanna be lonely for the rest of the days in the earth"-Weezer (Yes, that´s a part of a weezer´s song).
You should watch that movie, is an England independent film, it is really good, I loved it, it´s one of my favourites movies ever...

Well I'm gonna go and watch it again.

Love,
 -Lore.

Getting phyllosphycal...

Since I´m getting older, I´ve begin to wonder, why am I here?, what´s the reason of me being here?, I guess somewhere inside me there´s an answer for those questions, but I really, really want to find them out, since I don´t see me in a future 10 years from now, I guess that´s a bad start, but I´ve tried to imagine myself older, at age 26--27 what am I going to be doing?, am I going to be strung?, am I going to be teaching?, am I going to be travelling around the world?, am I going to be getting married? (I hope NOT), am I going to have a child? (I hope I WON´T), am I going to be here?, am I going to be somewhere else?, am I going to have friends?, Is my parrot still with me?, but the most important question of all, AM I GOING TO BE H A P P Y?, (I WANT TO), but how can I get there, if I can´t get an answer for all of those earlier questions I´ve made?, I guess I´m not supposed to be worrying about the future, but I guess I just can´t stop thinking about it, I´ve always said that if we don´t enjoy the present, in the future we´ll be regretted about all of those things we didn´t do when we supposed to do them, I guess that´s my problem, I just can´t listen to myself, that´s an odd phrase, I guess it´s true though, well, I suppose that if I continue wondering about the future, I won´t enjoy the present, so I´ll stop, and something good will come out of it (I really hope so)...

Listen to myself, that´s my new goal, I need TO LISTEN TO MYSELF.

Love, LORE.


I guess I liked the word "but" a lot hahaha :D

Thanks for reading these guys I love you!

Relax

OK I know I should know this but I know I knew but I just haven't thought about the consequences it may have on my soul and my body.

You´re probably like what is she talking about?, I'm talking about anger, being angry with someone, and to concentrate all of the things that had made your day in a bad day, yes that´s it...

So I really am a pacifist person but when someone or something makes me angry I can be really scary you know?, it´s almost like the moment I get angry I became a totally different human being, one who cannot control her anger and I know that's not healthy nor good for my spirit, but what can I do?.

The other day I was printing something for school (Yes I'm back in school, already I know what a short vacation that was :( ), and the freaking machine got stocked I literally wanted to throw it away and kick it the far I could but the only thing I did it was to cry, I don´t know why, and a lot of things happened to me this week also, and I got really angry, and then suddenly the other I got dizzy and I almost throw p, it was like I have eaten some bomb or whatever I literally felt like I was dying, and guess what?

Yes, you´re right it´s because I'm becoming a cranky little girl (not so little) and I got scared because I usually got a good health but not now, I mean I know is my fault and the only person who can change who I really am IS ME, No one can change me, but myself, so I guess I have to change just a little bit in that matter, so I´ve been thinking of things  can do to relax, and so far I´ve got this:

*Read

*Study?

*Exercise

*Play some sport

*Go out and walk

*Go and talk with my parrot

And that´s it, I think my next inversion is going to be in buying a book, for anger management, and relaxation. because as much as I want to I don´t know hot to meditate I'm that would help but I don´t how, I think that´s my next goal, meditate to RELAX.

I know this particular thing I wrote today, seems like some part of a diary but I really needed to let it go, so I thought it would be a nice way to let it out of my head, just by writing it here, I'm sorry if this causes you trouble I didn´t mean to.

Love,

-LORE

The Olympics going on!

OK so here we are just about to end this month, you know... and my country just won the first olympic medal in the Olympic games of this year I just can´t believe it I´m so happy :D
¡MUCHAS FELICIDADES CHICOS! (Germán Sanchez e Iván García) no hay mejor regalo para ustedes, que ganar una medalla olímpica en estos días, y por supuesto con unos competidores tan preparados con los que compitieron el día de hoy.

Toda la buena vibra que existe se les está mandando desde acá.
Here a photo of these amazing winners.

CONGRATULATIONS ALSO TO THE CHINESSE GUYS AND ALSO THE GUYS FROM USA AND ALL OF THE OTHERS GUYS THAT WHERE ON TODAY´S COMPETITION, YOU ARE ALL WINNERS!.

BRAVO MÉXICO <3 MUCHAS FELICIDADES CHICOS




-Lore

Nos vemos/See you soon

The thing about pets is...

Hey, how´s it going!?, How´s everything, you people?, I hope really, really good!. So today I decided to talk about pets, pets aren´t just pets, they can be also, your loyal friends, your better advisors, and the only ones who can understands how you feel sometimes...

OK, I think I´ve never said this before but I own, two parrots and two canaries, and I love them, with all of my heart, I know that sound a little bit too cheesy, but it´s only the truth, and when you have too many pets, of course you have to have a favourite, and mine, is my biggest parrot, he is the loveliest creature I have ever seen, he is too cute to be true, he has like orange eyes, and his has eyelashes, and its green all over, but also with blue, and red feathers, and his head is blue, but his cheeks are the brightest yellow, and of course he has red in his forehead, and his little claws, (not so little, actually). are like gray, and black, he is just too cute, but the most amazing thing I have ever get to see on an animal, is when he first started talking, it sounded just like my voice, I mean it still sounds like me, but when he said his first word I was really really fascinated, because he learned to say "HI", because we showed him, and that really makes me feel proud about him, and about myself, I think I have the best pet in the whole world...

One the of the other things I´ve felt amassed by, is all the loving, that he gives me, I know, you may ask yourself how can a bird love a person?, How can a bird show his affection to a human being?, How can a person be sure of what a bird feels?, etc, etc.

I have the answer to all of your question, let me say, that I had the same doubts, when he first came into my life, but I started to get to know him, and care about him, and he did the same, I started touching his little claws, and the he bit my finger, it didn´t hurt at all, in fact, it kind of tickled me with his little black thong, then I stroke his little head with my finger, and he closed his eyes, just as if he was enjoying it, he felt no fear, then another day, he climbed on my finger, and I carried him for a few minutes, then he started biting my finger again, and of course I was tickling, and suddenly, while I was laughing he started laughing too, and of course you can imagine how happy I was. 

Let me just say this, when I was little, like 5 or 6, we had a dog, and I really loved him, but my mom doesn´t likes dogs so we gave him away, and the same story happened like twice, and I felt, and thought I was never gonna love another animal ever, but the this little bird came into my life, and changed everything, and I´m really glad, he did, so if you have any advices about the care of this type of pet, I ask you kindly, please share them right here.

I have been really surprised by the way of loving that my pets have, If you have ever watched the movie "Rio" you can imagine that I´m just like Linda, when it comes about my pets...

Here´s a photo of my parrot, isn´t he the cutest thing?

See you soon, guys!

Love

-Lore :)

Karma is a b*tch!

Life is not always going to treat you right because, sometimes we don´t deserve to be treated that well, although sometimes we need it more than anything, that's what I learned so far, because, we have to admit it we are not always that sweet with all of the people that surrounds us, there is a thing called karma, and it´s kind of a b*tch, and I believe in that, so I have and idea, maybe I'm not right but I want to try...

Maybe if we don´t act like hypocrites, or maybe we are not rude all of the time, if we are polite and nice persons; (I'm not saying we are all that way is just an example) maybe our lives would be easier because we are not filled with bad feelings, regrets, anger, sadness, and all of those feelings that tend to eat us from inside, till there´s nothing but shallow hearts, and superficial thoughts inside us, maybe it´s kind of stupid, but its also kind of right isn´t it?.

I´ve thinking like this, because I have a friend, she´s a good friend, and sometimes she´s really really stressed about the world around her, but I think that If you concentrate in been happy, you can make it, because, the things that happens around you, doesn´t always affect you, of course I know that is important to know whats happening but sometimes, is better to keep away for a bit, till the things cool down, don´t you think?

Well I hope I'm right and if I'm not I'm glad, I said it, because, its better to open your mind and heart that to be all grumpy all the time.

By the way thank you so much, to all of those persons who keep reading my blog, you make me feel, really really glad, of what I'm doing,

Love.

-Lore

There is HOPE out there!

Hey, guys, have you ever the movie "It´s kind of a funny story"??, I have seen it like 5 times, already and I can´t get over it, I mean, this guy Craig, is so much like me! or maybe I am so much like him, I mean we have kind of the same problems, well I have more problems, but some of his problems are the same than mine, and you know? I feel like FINALLY someone understands me, I feel now, that I´m not the only one who doesn´t want to live any longer, and that´s kind of good, because I feel like I'm making a little progress, but you know?, sometimes I feel sad again, and I don´t care about anything, but then I think about the ending of this movie, and I feel like there´s HOPE out there, maybe someone will love me, maybe I will found out what I want to be for the rest of my life, maybe, my parents some day will notice when I´m not OK, maybe my friends some day they´ll realise that their life it is easier that some of the others and that they are the only person in the planet who lives, and breathes, I hope some day the bad people I´ve known so far, realise what have they done, who have they hurted, what are the things to make the world better, to make their OWN world better, change their ways, and just forget about the rest of the other people, I hope some day I can follow my own ideas, I don´t know why, but I never listen to myself, I wish, I can do it later some day, because there is HOPE out there!.
Love, -Lore (:
PS: that movie is based on a book, and I absolutely need to read it, I´m obsessed with it!

My life now, and a weird inspiration!

Oh My God, OK I never say that but this time is really really necessary, I´ve been absent for a long long time here, and I anted to say sorry to all of you, dear readers, without you I wouldn´t even be here, so I´m sorry I´ll try to write more often OK?. Let me tell you what was I up to, and why I hadn´t write anything in the past 3 months...
Let me think, since I´m in high school, and I have a lot of things to do, like homework, a lot of team projects, expositions, essays, exams, extra classes, social service, volleyball, and besides all of that things I have to go to French, Saturdays, so I'm now on level 2, I'm so happy about that, and guess what I think I only have to do one final exam for this semester! Isn´t that great?, the bad news is that is a Math final exam, so that´s not cool at all!...
MMMH... what else?, let me see I think I´ve changed a lot since I last wrote in here, but is still me Lore! the same as always, the crazy 16 year old girl who is a little bit hippie, but still really conservative, I think you will get to know me more because, I will be writing things about myself, about how I feel, and of course more stories, more thoughts I keep in my mind, but now I will keep them here, right here in your hands.
Now I wanna describe how I feel when I'm writing I think to write is the most beautiful thing you can do with your thoughts, because you are only saying what its on your mind and heart, that's the beauty of writing, I think a lot of people underestimate writers, but they don´t know how they feel when they are telling their stories, when  they´re opening their hearts to all of the audience that read the things they write, and they not only write, they are giving the chance to others to be better, to be like them, they inspire people, they change lives, and they change the world, that´s what I´d like to do, touch others people hearts, move them, and inspire them, because a lot of people have inspired me, and that´s the reason I'm doing my blog, because I want to learn how to move peoples hearts.
So let me know If I´ve ever done that please!
Love <3
-Lore

Changes are good!

Sometimes you think you know exactly who you are, but somehow you realise that all it isn't exactly truth, you may find some scars in your heart, it isn't bad, in fact it's better 'cause you realise that you do have feelings and you can get hurt, you realise you are made of flesh and bones, and not plastic...
This is what happened to me the other day, let me tell you that I was entirely lost, in my life, I couldn't find myself, I didn't know what I liked, what things I hated, because I was so focus on school, that I lost my senses, I used to look in the mirror and see nothing but a sad, sad person, without a future, without a life, without happiness, I look back to those days, and I realise that I do not wanna go back there ever; it is the most horrible thing that can happen to anyone...
I used to look around me and find just things without life, without colour, persons without personality, without feelings, animals without a heart, I didn't even took care of myself, I gain weight and I didn't mind at all, I used to think what's the point?, I don't even have a boyfriend, and nobody is ever going to like me because; I'm a freak show...
But after weeks and weeks of these horrible feelings I felt in my soul, I listened to a song, and saw a movie, about life, and I get it!, I get it that I wasn't the only one who felt like that, that I wasn't alone in my way to happiness, that there are so many persons with worst troubles than mine, and that I can spend my time thinking of the same sh*t!.
I realised that life it's absolutely beautiful, and it will treat you the same way you treat life, life isn't all about wondering what it's about to happen next, it is about happiness, it is about enjoying the little moments, having fun, and see all of the wonders in the world, spend time with people that actually have a personality, and feelings, shutting up and enjoying the music, worry about things that deserved to be worried about, care for other, and the most important of all, LOVING, to love the nature, to love your friends, to love your family, your pets, to love who you are, to love your time, and spend it wisely, with nice people, with the best attitude you can have, etc.
And I said to myself, that I'm not going to be that way again, I'm going to be happy, because my happiness do not depend of anything or anyone...
But now everything is so different now, I look up, and I see beauty, I look down and I see beauty, I look in the mirror, and I see me, not just another girl, me Lore the unique crazy Lore, the girl who loves metal, and butterflies, the girl who doesn't go to the gym because she doesn't care of having the best body just to act like a sl*t!, the girl who loves her parrots, her sisters and her LIFE.

-Lore

New year, new life.

Hey guys, I'm so glad I'm back I've been waiting so long for this momment, let me tell you that I've changed a lot since you last read about my life, let me tell you that I'm happier, and disconcerned than I was before. I cannot believe what I'm saying but I actually like my life, it is finally having sense now! I can see everything so much clearer than ever before, this is not what I was expecting for the new year, this is totally new for me, you should see me now, I smile, and I do have a reason to smile and it is because I'm alive and I have so much luck than others, I have a home, I have my family, I have plenty of friends, and I think theses chages that I have done in my life lately, have been made because I needed to, and I haven't realized that.

I have make new friends, and I actually like these ones better than the other I had before, I only speak now to one of my older friends, because she's OK, and I haven't realized that all the other kids whom with I sepnd a lot of time last year, were not what I had asumed they were, but Im happy that now I see who they really are, a bucj of b*tches! hahahaha....

However, I think I'm enjoying so much my life now that I didn't had enough time to write something and I trully apologize to those who keep reading this blog, because I know may have waited a long time, to hear from me, but let me tell you somethng may wanna hear, or don't I'M OKAY! 

I hope you have had a happy new year, and a merry christmas and I hope that all of your new year resolutions, come true. My best wishes to you, for this 2012, and forever!.

Thank's for reading these few lines that I absolutely wirte only for you (:

-Lore

Ps: I'm going to try to write more often now, because I have so many things to talk about, I mean I have new friends, I even like someone, I started my french course, I'm so much better with my family, etc. I have a better life now!.(sorry if my spelling is not so good, but my button for cheking the spelling doesn't work! :/)

Wild life preservation

So I had to write something for English Class, and the thing we wrote it was supposed to be our grade, so I decided to write about the wild life preservation, because the day I wrote that I actually saw a film about this subject, it was called "The last grizzly bear", it was a documentary and I cried, it was so beautiful this film that really inspired me and made me write this, here's my essay...

Tell me what do you think about this...

Wild life, environment, and animal kingdom; those three things really mean something to me, more than animals, water, rivers, and trees, those things mean to me, so much more than just that, they mean all the living creatures we’re surrounded by, all the amazing and intelligent, creatures that live near us, and we don’t even care about them, I know that there are many institutions these days that are trying to help preserving the life of our planet, but is that really enough?

I don’t really think so, I think that, if we try, then it would be easier to live surrounded by animals than surrounded by tall concrete buildings, instead, of beautiful trees, because a tree isn’t just a tree, it is more than that, it’s the home of living creatures, like bugs, or birds, or squirrels, and even raccoons, and if you cut one three, you’re actually, murdering, entire families, of these animals, I mean would it be nice for you, having someone in your house, destroying all your furniture, food, and who later will kill you and your family? Of course NOT, and that’s what we’re doing to those little animals, we’re destroying their house, but it isn’t only “their” house, it’s also, “our” home, but we haven’t realised that yet, and it’s an important thing to do, cause we shouldn’t keep doing it, but it seems that we’re insensible to feel the suffering these creatures, that aren’t ourselves, and why’s that?

Because, like Madonna said “we’re living in a material world”, a world where the only thing that matters, is the money you own, or how big is your house, and the way your dressing, the brand your buying, the things you eat, the car you drive, the pet you have, or what school your into; but it should be all the opposite thing, some people think and say, that they aren’t racist, but they are, without noticing, maybe, but they are, and they wouldn’t know, how to behave in the woods, cause all that they care for is the reception on their blackberry, and what was the last thing they wrote on Facebook; these people I’m talking about, includes everyone actually.

How dumb is to be surrounded by beautiful things and don’t even take a minute to appreciate them, to look at them, to be amazed, by the pretty things were surrounded by, all those birds, butterflies and dragonflies flying above our heads, all those bugs that walk besides our feet, all those plants, trees and flowers, that with their beautiful colours, would light up, our day, if we’d take a minute to look or a minute to walk with our head up, and not with our head down, like we always do…

I hope, that these things aren’t just a dream, I hope, we can make a change and be friendly to Earth, it would be so much easier to live like this, than to be constantly stressed by all the things that doesn’t really matter. I truly believe that it would be amazing, if we put a little piece of solidarity, in our home, and I’m not talking about keeping our house clean, I mean, if we start now, we can make a difference, it would be the beginning of something bigger than us, a change, that will be remarkable, and will be remembered and thanked by our grandchildren, our nephews, our brothers and sisters that in the near future they too will be living in our mother earth, our home.  

So lost

Have you ever feel like if you were all by your own in this world?, well I feel like that in this exact moment of my life, I feel completely lost, I have no idea about what I'm going to do next, or what I'm going to do tomorrow, I don't even know what I want to be!, I bet that when you are 16 you already know what you want to be, but I don't I feel completely stupid, because, I have a lot of ideas in my mind but I don't know I can make them true, I mean I want to become a biochemistrician but there's a lot of math involved in that career and I know that I'm not that good on math, and I also wanted to become a writer, since I love writting stuff, I think that adequate for me, but I don't know, if I have enough imagination in me, to write a book, or something, maybe I can become a journalist, oh but I can't since they're all killed in Mexico and I have not enough money to move to another country, maybe I can work on the radio since I love talking about a lot stuff I would never get off of subjects, oh but I forget there's no jobs in Mexico, my life sucks, I feel like I shouldn't have been born in this country, but that it's a fact I can't actually change, and I ate that, because everyone thinks that we are just homeless people, caring a baby in our backs with a hat in our heads but we're a lot more than that, but anyone can see...

By the way I'm not even inspired I'm just mad with my self, I don't know what to do with myself at this moment...

Earth, our home.

Oh today is so cold, I think winter is rushing a bit, we're not even in December yet, well these are the consequences of the global warming, poor mother earth, what horrible thing's we've done to you.

I guess, that if we hadn't thought so much in our selves, maybe, it could be different, but different how?, different in the way we see the world, in the way we stand, in the way we live, because, it seems like nobody Care's about the beauty in the world, all the amazing flowers, all the amazing animals, all the charming thing's we're surrounded, but we can't see, 'cause, we've built like 123456765432 fabrics and buildings, that are leaving us blind of all the beautiful things we're losing. 

But, yesterday I was wondering, what can we do?, we can change the way we think, because, yes, we are going to overwhelmed our mother earth, and I'm not talking about a good feeling, I mean in the bad way, 'cause, what would do you, if someone is constantly putting stuff in your back, and their becoming heavier, and heavier, that you will get to the moment you wont stand that, you will come to a point, when you will say it's over I can't do it anymore, and that is what we are all doing to earth; and yet, we are all wining around about why, there was tsunami?, why there was a flood?, and answer it's actually obvious, why?, because we all made earth to cry, because, we're carring her with too many things.

So I figured out a way, that we can say thanks, to our mother nature, let's not think a lot in our selves, let's think about, our future, brother's and sister's that haven't born yet, 'cause I know that they would love to see, all the thing's we have saw, all the sea's, all the woods, all the beautiful cities, all the rivers, all the volcano's, all the mountains, etc; let's not think as earth as a place, it isn't a place, it's so much more than that, it's our HOME, and we're destroying it, and we have to stop doing it!; so every time you're about to throw a can, or a plastic bag, in the way while your driving car, or while your walking, take a minute and think, how many year's, would take that to become a part of the earth -disintegrate-?, Think twice, think about the consequences, how many animals would die?, how many kid's would be harmed?... A lot, so think in everyone, but your self, just for a little while, worry about the others, your brothers and sisters.

-Love, Lore-

Buried feelings

I'm so blue right now, that I couldn't think any were else to go, but my room, and take out my lap, and write something about myself.

I think my life is missing the happy part of it, I'm living my life, like if I had 40 year's or something like that, I don't feel like a 16 year old girl, I feel like a granny, my brain and my body, feels like that. sometimes not even my behavior is similar to a 16 year old girl, you may sound like if I was describing a creepy old woman with 27 cat's in her house, but I'm not I'm actually talking about me.

And for now on, I'll make a pact with myself, which is that I'll enjoy the little thing's, I will laugh harder, I'll take a minute or two to appreciate the life that I'm living because I'm really lucky to have this life.

I'll take time to realize the beauty of the world, with it's bad and good thing's, 'cause no one seems to care about the world, so I will,

I know this may sound like an invented story, or so, but it's not!. -I can't believe I'm going to say this but...- I never asked to grow, I know that is a natural process of life it self, but it's not OK, -it really isn't- you may be wondering why?. It's a easy answer, 'case growing up it's just like rolling in the floor with no clothes on, and I don't mean floor, I meant like the ground, with all the mud, stones, and dirt, and while you're rolling these thing's hurt you and you can't fight with them all the time, sometimes you have to stop fighting and just resist. 

 But what can I do?, when I talk to myself about this situation, I think that the only thing that I can't do, it's just stand it and live with it, because some day, I know I will be big!, and I will shine, -not like a movie star o anything-, I will shine with my smile, because I can!, and I will study harder so, I could make easier my residence in school, so for now on, these will be like a bible, every time I feel disappointed about my self, I will read this and I will remember that I can stand anything,

I can do it, 'cause I'm beautiful, and strong, I have more guts that all my classmates together, 'cause they didn't lived their childhood like I did, and because they didn't had the parent's that I had. - and I thank god, I have my parent's, with me, because without them I would be lost-.

So for now on, I will change my attitude, because I don't want to feel this way, anymore!.

Love, Lore.

PS: I really needed to share this with someone, 'cause I've been feeling sort of drowned, with this buried feeling I had deep in my heart. 

I realized...

Today I feel like sharing a video, I don't know if I'm going to make it 'cause I don't have the slightness idea of how to share a video, well If I don't make it I will share also the lyrics of this song that I love OK?...
It's called: Do you realize?, by the Flaming Lips:

Do You Realize, that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize, we're floating in space
Do You Realize, that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize, that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes, let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize, Oh Oh Oh
Do You Realize, that everyone, you know,
Someday, will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes, let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize, that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize..


Oh I absolutely love this song I found it quite though provoking I don't know I think it's a lovely way to catch the awful reality in such an awesome way to see the world, and it's also a bit depressing but at the end, you realize that is exactly how life is.




Hope you like it.

Loneliness is ON

Have you ever feel like quiting everything?, like if you wanted to scape far far away to a unknown country, or city, left everything behind, and never comeback to the start?.

I kind of feel like that I don't know why, I feel like I need more than myself to carry on, I don't mean I need a MAN, I actually don't need one, but I would like to have more friend's, more stories to be told, but nothing ever happens to me.

No one ever came and say hi, to me, no one asks me what's my name?, no one worries 'bout my feelings.

What is important to them? Do they care about their looking?, Do they care about their appearances?, Do they care about anyone else besides themselves?.... I think the only answer I'm going to get is NO.

What is the beauty of life, if you are only interested in the out side and not in the inside?, what's the point of eating, if you are not going to enjoy it?, whats the point of reading i you only, read gossip?, whats the point of talking, if you are only speaking?...

What the sense of living for them?, the truly important things for me are love, hope, and peace, but they're vanishing down, 'cause it seems I'm actually the only one who cares about something that deserves to be cared.

But no one understands what I believe in, no one understands why, I'm ME.

Hope someday, I'll find someone who has the things I can't find in me... But for now on, it seems I'm just me vs the world. But what am I fighting for?...

Life changing experiences

So... today I feel good, so I will tell you a story that may sound pretty boring but it changed my life.

So this started like 15 year's ago, when my sisters went to the doctor, 'cause they needed glasses, 'cause they didn't see that well, so I was a baby, and the doctor, said my eyes were weird, 'cause they were moving and moving like side to side, so quickly so he said that I had this disease, and that I needed glasses too, but my mom didn't wanted that I wear glasses since a young age, so when I was 6 I returned with the same doctor, and he gave me my very first pair of glasses, sometimes I didn't like to wear glasses, 'cause it's not comfortable, so I wore glasses for ten years, YES 10 years, and I stopped using them 'cause I went to surgery, to fix my problem, fortunately everything went well, but a month before I went to the operating room, I was so nervous, that I loss like 3 pounds, my hands were sweating almost all the time, and I was so sensitive to everything because I was scared.

I thought what if I need a transplant?, -the Dr. said it would be a high risk operation- what if the transplant never gets here?, what if I never get to see again?, what am I supposed to do?, I did know that the operation was the best option for me 'cause I've always had troubles to see the board, so I didn't wanted those problems again in high school, so the day I went the the operating room, I was shaking, my hands were cold, and the nurses didn't told me it was time to go, so I didn't talk to my parents till I got out, but when I was there, I felt, terrible, suddenly, everything got blurry, and sometimes went black, and I saw a needle, came straight to my eye, and I couldn't stopped it, so I had to hold on the teddy bear the nurse gave me to tight I almost choke him in a figurative sense of course, and them the laser started, I was feeling this hot thing inside my eye, that actually burned my eye, and it was a painful part of the thing, and I smelled like burned meat, 'cause the laser was burning my eyes, then the laser stopped, and the nurse  put me these weird drops of medicine in my eyes, that made me felt like if someone put me a chili in my eye!, and the the Dr. told me a lot of thing I had to do for  the taking care of my eyes 'cause he had to go, and I was like WTH?, I mean I just survived these freak thing and now you tell me this?, anyway I got out and everything seemed so blurry and... whats the word? like soft, or something and my eyes were so swollen and, I went through a lot of pain there, so I was happy 'cause then I could go home.

The weirdest thing is that the operation only lasted for like 20 minutes and it felted like hours!, I didn't believe how quickly I got out 'cause I thought I'd taken longer there, so I went with my parent well they came to me, 'cause I couldn't see well, and they took me home, and then I fall asleep, with my "goggles", -protectors-, and I woke up and I was like?, what? how could this thing ever happened to me?, I couldn't believe I was safe.

So I learned that even you feel, so bad, and you think everything is going to come in a bad way, is not, 'cause there's someone watching you, and also, I have great parents that care about me, but what is they didn't?. so I pray, 'cause I knew I have to thank god, that everything came well. 

Now I don't use glasses, and I can see the board, sometimes I feel odd, 'cause, I've always wore them, it's like somethings missing, but I'm so much better now, and I have to say you guys that if you're healthy please consider the organs donation when you died, I have though about it, 'cause there are hundreds and hundreds of people, that needs maybe a kidney, a heart, a I don't know, and they might died 'cause only the 6% (In Mexico) donates their organs when they die, so I think it's a good thing to do and to think about it.

So I wanted to tell you that, 'cause its liberating for me, now I'm better 'cause I told you my story. thanks to all the ones who keep reading my blog, Im glad you do!.

Reporting from Mexico, in a windy-cloudy day, giraffe's off.

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