Thinking iin a dangerous word...

Have you ever thought why do they always make movies about a four letter word that I don´t quite understand yet (L-O-V-E)?

Well I do, all the time, and there´s one movie in particular that made me thing a lot when I first saw it, it´s called "Heartless" if you have seen it of course you know what I´m talking about if your not well then you don't know but, there´s a fact: it is a really good movie...

This movie is about a boy that had a mole heart-shaped in the face, red and  everything but he didn´t liked it, (I think it´s pretty amazing, can you imagine? a a heart-shaped mole? w-o-w!) so he always hide that side of his face with his hoodies, and stuff like that, so one day he started to hate himself, because he thought that he would never find anyone who could love for whom he was, so he made a pact with the devil and the devil, made him believe that the mole had disappear, but- it wasn´t, it was always there, in the meanwhile he met this amazing girl and fell in love, and he thought that he had no mole, but he did... well I'm ain't going further because I'm going to ruin the movie for you guys if you hadn´t seen it.

The point is that I sort of feel like him, I feel like no one is ever going to love me or like me for whom I am, I know that´s a little bit to dark to think of, but what if I'm right?.

I think I'm going to rent the movie and see it again I have to see it again to" feel like there´s some hope for me I don't wanna be lonely for the rest of the days in the earth"-Weezer (Yes, that´s a part of a weezer´s song).
You should watch that movie, is an England independent film, it is really good, I loved it, it´s one of my favourites movies ever...

Well I'm gonna go and watch it again.

Love,
 -Lore.

Relax

OK I know I should know this but I know I knew but I just haven't thought about the consequences it may have on my soul and my body.

You´re probably like what is she talking about?, I'm talking about anger, being angry with someone, and to concentrate all of the things that had made your day in a bad day, yes that´s it...

So I really am a pacifist person but when someone or something makes me angry I can be really scary you know?, it´s almost like the moment I get angry I became a totally different human being, one who cannot control her anger and I know that's not healthy nor good for my spirit, but what can I do?.

The other day I was printing something for school (Yes I'm back in school, already I know what a short vacation that was :( ), and the freaking machine got stocked I literally wanted to throw it away and kick it the far I could but the only thing I did it was to cry, I don´t know why, and a lot of things happened to me this week also, and I got really angry, and then suddenly the other I got dizzy and I almost throw p, it was like I have eaten some bomb or whatever I literally felt like I was dying, and guess what?

Yes, you´re right it´s because I'm becoming a cranky little girl (not so little) and I got scared because I usually got a good health but not now, I mean I know is my fault and the only person who can change who I really am IS ME, No one can change me, but myself, so I guess I have to change just a little bit in that matter, so I´ve been thinking of things  can do to relax, and so far I´ve got this:

*Read

*Study?

*Exercise

*Play some sport

*Go out and walk

*Go and talk with my parrot

And that´s it, I think my next inversion is going to be in buying a book, for anger management, and relaxation. because as much as I want to I don´t know hot to meditate I'm that would help but I don´t how, I think that´s my next goal, meditate to RELAX.

I know this particular thing I wrote today, seems like some part of a diary but I really needed to let it go, so I thought it would be a nice way to let it out of my head, just by writing it here, I'm sorry if this causes you trouble I didn´t mean to.

Love,

-LORE