Thinking iin a dangerous word...

Have you ever thought why do they always make movies about a four letter word that I don´t quite understand yet (L-O-V-E)?

Well I do, all the time, and there´s one movie in particular that made me thing a lot when I first saw it, it´s called "Heartless" if you have seen it of course you know what I´m talking about if your not well then you don't know but, there´s a fact: it is a really good movie...

This movie is about a boy that had a mole heart-shaped in the face, red and  everything but he didn´t liked it, (I think it´s pretty amazing, can you imagine? a a heart-shaped mole? w-o-w!) so he always hide that side of his face with his hoodies, and stuff like that, so one day he started to hate himself, because he thought that he would never find anyone who could love for whom he was, so he made a pact with the devil and the devil, made him believe that the mole had disappear, but- it wasn´t, it was always there, in the meanwhile he met this amazing girl and fell in love, and he thought that he had no mole, but he did... well I'm ain't going further because I'm going to ruin the movie for you guys if you hadn´t seen it.

The point is that I sort of feel like him, I feel like no one is ever going to love me or like me for whom I am, I know that´s a little bit to dark to think of, but what if I'm right?.

I think I'm going to rent the movie and see it again I have to see it again to" feel like there´s some hope for me I don't wanna be lonely for the rest of the days in the earth"-Weezer (Yes, that´s a part of a weezer´s song).
You should watch that movie, is an England independent film, it is really good, I loved it, it´s one of my favourites movies ever...

Well I'm gonna go and watch it again.

Love,
 -Lore.

Relax

OK I know I should know this but I know I knew but I just haven't thought about the consequences it may have on my soul and my body.

You´re probably like what is she talking about?, I'm talking about anger, being angry with someone, and to concentrate all of the things that had made your day in a bad day, yes that´s it...

So I really am a pacifist person but when someone or something makes me angry I can be really scary you know?, it´s almost like the moment I get angry I became a totally different human being, one who cannot control her anger and I know that's not healthy nor good for my spirit, but what can I do?.

The other day I was printing something for school (Yes I'm back in school, already I know what a short vacation that was :( ), and the freaking machine got stocked I literally wanted to throw it away and kick it the far I could but the only thing I did it was to cry, I don´t know why, and a lot of things happened to me this week also, and I got really angry, and then suddenly the other I got dizzy and I almost throw p, it was like I have eaten some bomb or whatever I literally felt like I was dying, and guess what?

Yes, you´re right it´s because I'm becoming a cranky little girl (not so little) and I got scared because I usually got a good health but not now, I mean I know is my fault and the only person who can change who I really am IS ME, No one can change me, but myself, so I guess I have to change just a little bit in that matter, so I´ve been thinking of things  can do to relax, and so far I´ve got this:

*Read

*Study?

*Exercise

*Play some sport

*Go out and walk

*Go and talk with my parrot

And that´s it, I think my next inversion is going to be in buying a book, for anger management, and relaxation. because as much as I want to I don´t know hot to meditate I'm that would help but I don´t how, I think that´s my next goal, meditate to RELAX.

I know this particular thing I wrote today, seems like some part of a diary but I really needed to let it go, so I thought it would be a nice way to let it out of my head, just by writing it here, I'm sorry if this causes you trouble I didn´t mean to.

Love,

-LORE

There is HOPE out there!

Hey, guys, have you ever the movie "It´s kind of a funny story"??, I have seen it like 5 times, already and I can´t get over it, I mean, this guy Craig, is so much like me! or maybe I am so much like him, I mean we have kind of the same problems, well I have more problems, but some of his problems are the same than mine, and you know? I feel like FINALLY someone understands me, I feel now, that I´m not the only one who doesn´t want to live any longer, and that´s kind of good, because I feel like I'm making a little progress, but you know?, sometimes I feel sad again, and I don´t care about anything, but then I think about the ending of this movie, and I feel like there´s HOPE out there, maybe someone will love me, maybe I will found out what I want to be for the rest of my life, maybe, my parents some day will notice when I´m not OK, maybe my friends some day they´ll realise that their life it is easier that some of the others and that they are the only person in the planet who lives, and breathes, I hope some day the bad people I´ve known so far, realise what have they done, who have they hurted, what are the things to make the world better, to make their OWN world better, change their ways, and just forget about the rest of the other people, I hope some day I can follow my own ideas, I don´t know why, but I never listen to myself, I wish, I can do it later some day, because there is HOPE out there!.
Love, -Lore (:
PS: that movie is based on a book, and I absolutely need to read it, I´m obsessed with it!

Loneliness is ON

Have you ever feel like quiting everything?, like if you wanted to scape far far away to a unknown country, or city, left everything behind, and never comeback to the start?.

I kind of feel like that I don't know why, I feel like I need more than myself to carry on, I don't mean I need a MAN, I actually don't need one, but I would like to have more friend's, more stories to be told, but nothing ever happens to me.

No one ever came and say hi, to me, no one asks me what's my name?, no one worries 'bout my feelings.

What is important to them? Do they care about their looking?, Do they care about their appearances?, Do they care about anyone else besides themselves?.... I think the only answer I'm going to get is NO.

What is the beauty of life, if you are only interested in the out side and not in the inside?, what's the point of eating, if you are not going to enjoy it?, whats the point of reading i you only, read gossip?, whats the point of talking, if you are only speaking?...

What the sense of living for them?, the truly important things for me are love, hope, and peace, but they're vanishing down, 'cause it seems I'm actually the only one who cares about something that deserves to be cared.

But no one understands what I believe in, no one understands why, I'm ME.

Hope someday, I'll find someone who has the things I can't find in me... But for now on, it seems I'm just me vs the world. But what am I fighting for?...

This is my life.

OK this is my first post here in my new blog, actually, my first blog, I'm a bit excited though, 'cause I'd never had one before, but let me tell you that I'm not a common person, let me tell you what I think about life.

Life, what's the sense of living if there are not obstacles in our way?, I know It may sound cheesy, but I think that's what life is, -the interesting of living is the possibility to make your dreams come true- that little phrase there  was written by Paulo Coelho, one of my biggest inspirational persons! 

Sometimes life hits you where it hurts you the most, but you gotta take it, and live with it, 'cause somehow pain it's something that tells you that you're alive, and every time that pain will be bigger and bigger because you're actually growing up and they say that when you grow up you have a lot of responsibilities and other stuff I can't remember.

So grab you armor and keep fighting for your dreams, please, please, don't listen to the stupid people that says that "dreams are only dreams & just that, they will never came true", 'cause their wrong, so wrong, 'cause if you want something so badly, you can actually get there, but it takes a lot things, things like courage, hope, braveness, faith,etc.

 And they're saying, that dreams can't come true because they lost those things on the way when they were fighting for their dreams, so my today's advice  is NEVER GIVE UP TO ANYTHING or ANYONE just keep on fighting.