Relax

OK I know I should know this but I know I knew but I just haven't thought about the consequences it may have on my soul and my body.

You´re probably like what is she talking about?, I'm talking about anger, being angry with someone, and to concentrate all of the things that had made your day in a bad day, yes that´s it...

So I really am a pacifist person but when someone or something makes me angry I can be really scary you know?, it´s almost like the moment I get angry I became a totally different human being, one who cannot control her anger and I know that's not healthy nor good for my spirit, but what can I do?.

The other day I was printing something for school (Yes I'm back in school, already I know what a short vacation that was :( ), and the freaking machine got stocked I literally wanted to throw it away and kick it the far I could but the only thing I did it was to cry, I don´t know why, and a lot of things happened to me this week also, and I got really angry, and then suddenly the other I got dizzy and I almost throw p, it was like I have eaten some bomb or whatever I literally felt like I was dying, and guess what?

Yes, you´re right it´s because I'm becoming a cranky little girl (not so little) and I got scared because I usually got a good health but not now, I mean I know is my fault and the only person who can change who I really am IS ME, No one can change me, but myself, so I guess I have to change just a little bit in that matter, so I´ve been thinking of things  can do to relax, and so far I´ve got this:

*Read

*Study?

*Exercise

*Play some sport

*Go out and walk

*Go and talk with my parrot

And that´s it, I think my next inversion is going to be in buying a book, for anger management, and relaxation. because as much as I want to I don´t know hot to meditate I'm that would help but I don´t how, I think that´s my next goal, meditate to RELAX.

I know this particular thing I wrote today, seems like some part of a diary but I really needed to let it go, so I thought it would be a nice way to let it out of my head, just by writing it here, I'm sorry if this causes you trouble I didn´t mean to.

Love,

-LORE

There is HOPE out there!

Hey, guys, have you ever the movie "It´s kind of a funny story"??, I have seen it like 5 times, already and I can´t get over it, I mean, this guy Craig, is so much like me! or maybe I am so much like him, I mean we have kind of the same problems, well I have more problems, but some of his problems are the same than mine, and you know? I feel like FINALLY someone understands me, I feel now, that I´m not the only one who doesn´t want to live any longer, and that´s kind of good, because I feel like I'm making a little progress, but you know?, sometimes I feel sad again, and I don´t care about anything, but then I think about the ending of this movie, and I feel like there´s HOPE out there, maybe someone will love me, maybe I will found out what I want to be for the rest of my life, maybe, my parents some day will notice when I´m not OK, maybe my friends some day they´ll realise that their life it is easier that some of the others and that they are the only person in the planet who lives, and breathes, I hope some day the bad people I´ve known so far, realise what have they done, who have they hurted, what are the things to make the world better, to make their OWN world better, change their ways, and just forget about the rest of the other people, I hope some day I can follow my own ideas, I don´t know why, but I never listen to myself, I wish, I can do it later some day, because there is HOPE out there!.
Love, -Lore (:
PS: that movie is based on a book, and I absolutely need to read it, I´m obsessed with it!