There is HOPE out there!

Hey, guys, have you ever the movie "It´s kind of a funny story"??, I have seen it like 5 times, already and I can´t get over it, I mean, this guy Craig, is so much like me! or maybe I am so much like him, I mean we have kind of the same problems, well I have more problems, but some of his problems are the same than mine, and you know? I feel like FINALLY someone understands me, I feel now, that I´m not the only one who doesn´t want to live any longer, and that´s kind of good, because I feel like I'm making a little progress, but you know?, sometimes I feel sad again, and I don´t care about anything, but then I think about the ending of this movie, and I feel like there´s HOPE out there, maybe someone will love me, maybe I will found out what I want to be for the rest of my life, maybe, my parents some day will notice when I´m not OK, maybe my friends some day they´ll realise that their life it is easier that some of the others and that they are the only person in the planet who lives, and breathes, I hope some day the bad people I´ve known so far, realise what have they done, who have they hurted, what are the things to make the world better, to make their OWN world better, change their ways, and just forget about the rest of the other people, I hope some day I can follow my own ideas, I don´t know why, but I never listen to myself, I wish, I can do it later some day, because there is HOPE out there!.
Love, -Lore (:
PS: that movie is based on a book, and I absolutely need to read it, I´m obsessed with it!

Life changing experiences

So... today I feel good, so I will tell you a story that may sound pretty boring but it changed my life.

So this started like 15 year's ago, when my sisters went to the doctor, 'cause they needed glasses, 'cause they didn't see that well, so I was a baby, and the doctor, said my eyes were weird, 'cause they were moving and moving like side to side, so quickly so he said that I had this disease, and that I needed glasses too, but my mom didn't wanted that I wear glasses since a young age, so when I was 6 I returned with the same doctor, and he gave me my very first pair of glasses, sometimes I didn't like to wear glasses, 'cause it's not comfortable, so I wore glasses for ten years, YES 10 years, and I stopped using them 'cause I went to surgery, to fix my problem, fortunately everything went well, but a month before I went to the operating room, I was so nervous, that I loss like 3 pounds, my hands were sweating almost all the time, and I was so sensitive to everything because I was scared.

I thought what if I need a transplant?, -the Dr. said it would be a high risk operation- what if the transplant never gets here?, what if I never get to see again?, what am I supposed to do?, I did know that the operation was the best option for me 'cause I've always had troubles to see the board, so I didn't wanted those problems again in high school, so the day I went the the operating room, I was shaking, my hands were cold, and the nurses didn't told me it was time to go, so I didn't talk to my parents till I got out, but when I was there, I felt, terrible, suddenly, everything got blurry, and sometimes went black, and I saw a needle, came straight to my eye, and I couldn't stopped it, so I had to hold on the teddy bear the nurse gave me to tight I almost choke him in a figurative sense of course, and them the laser started, I was feeling this hot thing inside my eye, that actually burned my eye, and it was a painful part of the thing, and I smelled like burned meat, 'cause the laser was burning my eyes, then the laser stopped, and the nurse  put me these weird drops of medicine in my eyes, that made me felt like if someone put me a chili in my eye!, and the the Dr. told me a lot of thing I had to do for  the taking care of my eyes 'cause he had to go, and I was like WTH?, I mean I just survived these freak thing and now you tell me this?, anyway I got out and everything seemed so blurry and... whats the word? like soft, or something and my eyes were so swollen and, I went through a lot of pain there, so I was happy 'cause then I could go home.

The weirdest thing is that the operation only lasted for like 20 minutes and it felted like hours!, I didn't believe how quickly I got out 'cause I thought I'd taken longer there, so I went with my parent well they came to me, 'cause I couldn't see well, and they took me home, and then I fall asleep, with my "goggles", -protectors-, and I woke up and I was like?, what? how could this thing ever happened to me?, I couldn't believe I was safe.

So I learned that even you feel, so bad, and you think everything is going to come in a bad way, is not, 'cause there's someone watching you, and also, I have great parents that care about me, but what is they didn't?. so I pray, 'cause I knew I have to thank god, that everything came well. 

Now I don't use glasses, and I can see the board, sometimes I feel odd, 'cause, I've always wore them, it's like somethings missing, but I'm so much better now, and I have to say you guys that if you're healthy please consider the organs donation when you died, I have though about it, 'cause there are hundreds and hundreds of people, that needs maybe a kidney, a heart, a I don't know, and they might died 'cause only the 6% (In Mexico) donates their organs when they die, so I think it's a good thing to do and to think about it.

So I wanted to tell you that, 'cause its liberating for me, now I'm better 'cause I told you my story. thanks to all the ones who keep reading my blog, Im glad you do!.

Reporting from Mexico, in a windy-cloudy day, giraffe's off.

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This is my life.

OK this is my first post here in my new blog, actually, my first blog, I'm a bit excited though, 'cause I'd never had one before, but let me tell you that I'm not a common person, let me tell you what I think about life.

Life, what's the sense of living if there are not obstacles in our way?, I know It may sound cheesy, but I think that's what life is, -the interesting of living is the possibility to make your dreams come true- that little phrase there  was written by Paulo Coelho, one of my biggest inspirational persons! 

Sometimes life hits you where it hurts you the most, but you gotta take it, and live with it, 'cause somehow pain it's something that tells you that you're alive, and every time that pain will be bigger and bigger because you're actually growing up and they say that when you grow up you have a lot of responsibilities and other stuff I can't remember.

So grab you armor and keep fighting for your dreams, please, please, don't listen to the stupid people that says that "dreams are only dreams & just that, they will never came true", 'cause their wrong, so wrong, 'cause if you want something so badly, you can actually get there, but it takes a lot things, things like courage, hope, braveness, faith,etc.

 And they're saying, that dreams can't come true because they lost those things on the way when they were fighting for their dreams, so my today's advice  is NEVER GIVE UP TO ANYTHING or ANYONE just keep on fighting.