Changes are good!

Sometimes you think you know exactly who you are, but somehow you realise that all it isn't exactly truth, you may find some scars in your heart, it isn't bad, in fact it's better 'cause you realise that you do have feelings and you can get hurt, you realise you are made of flesh and bones, and not plastic...
This is what happened to me the other day, let me tell you that I was entirely lost, in my life, I couldn't find myself, I didn't know what I liked, what things I hated, because I was so focus on school, that I lost my senses, I used to look in the mirror and see nothing but a sad, sad person, without a future, without a life, without happiness, I look back to those days, and I realise that I do not wanna go back there ever; it is the most horrible thing that can happen to anyone...
I used to look around me and find just things without life, without colour, persons without personality, without feelings, animals without a heart, I didn't even took care of myself, I gain weight and I didn't mind at all, I used to think what's the point?, I don't even have a boyfriend, and nobody is ever going to like me because; I'm a freak show...
But after weeks and weeks of these horrible feelings I felt in my soul, I listened to a song, and saw a movie, about life, and I get it!, I get it that I wasn't the only one who felt like that, that I wasn't alone in my way to happiness, that there are so many persons with worst troubles than mine, and that I can spend my time thinking of the same sh*t!.
I realised that life it's absolutely beautiful, and it will treat you the same way you treat life, life isn't all about wondering what it's about to happen next, it is about happiness, it is about enjoying the little moments, having fun, and see all of the wonders in the world, spend time with people that actually have a personality, and feelings, shutting up and enjoying the music, worry about things that deserved to be worried about, care for other, and the most important of all, LOVING, to love the nature, to love your friends, to love your family, your pets, to love who you are, to love your time, and spend it wisely, with nice people, with the best attitude you can have, etc.
And I said to myself, that I'm not going to be that way again, I'm going to be happy, because my happiness do not depend of anything or anyone...
But now everything is so different now, I look up, and I see beauty, I look down and I see beauty, I look in the mirror, and I see me, not just another girl, me Lore the unique crazy Lore, the girl who loves metal, and butterflies, the girl who doesn't go to the gym because she doesn't care of having the best body just to act like a sl*t!, the girl who loves her parrots, her sisters and her LIFE.

-Lore