Wild life preservation

So I had to write something for English Class, and the thing we wrote it was supposed to be our grade, so I decided to write about the wild life preservation, because the day I wrote that I actually saw a film about this subject, it was called "The last grizzly bear", it was a documentary and I cried, it was so beautiful this film that really inspired me and made me write this, here's my essay...

Tell me what do you think about this...

Wild life, environment, and animal kingdom; those three things really mean something to me, more than animals, water, rivers, and trees, those things mean to me, so much more than just that, they mean all the living creatures we’re surrounded by, all the amazing and intelligent, creatures that live near us, and we don’t even care about them, I know that there are many institutions these days that are trying to help preserving the life of our planet, but is that really enough?

I don’t really think so, I think that, if we try, then it would be easier to live surrounded by animals than surrounded by tall concrete buildings, instead, of beautiful trees, because a tree isn’t just a tree, it is more than that, it’s the home of living creatures, like bugs, or birds, or squirrels, and even raccoons, and if you cut one three, you’re actually, murdering, entire families, of these animals, I mean would it be nice for you, having someone in your house, destroying all your furniture, food, and who later will kill you and your family? Of course NOT, and that’s what we’re doing to those little animals, we’re destroying their house, but it isn’t only “their” house, it’s also, “our” home, but we haven’t realised that yet, and it’s an important thing to do, cause we shouldn’t keep doing it, but it seems that we’re insensible to feel the suffering these creatures, that aren’t ourselves, and why’s that?

Because, like Madonna said “we’re living in a material world”, a world where the only thing that matters, is the money you own, or how big is your house, and the way your dressing, the brand your buying, the things you eat, the car you drive, the pet you have, or what school your into; but it should be all the opposite thing, some people think and say, that they aren’t racist, but they are, without noticing, maybe, but they are, and they wouldn’t know, how to behave in the woods, cause all that they care for is the reception on their blackberry, and what was the last thing they wrote on Facebook; these people I’m talking about, includes everyone actually.

How dumb is to be surrounded by beautiful things and don’t even take a minute to appreciate them, to look at them, to be amazed, by the pretty things were surrounded by, all those birds, butterflies and dragonflies flying above our heads, all those bugs that walk besides our feet, all those plants, trees and flowers, that with their beautiful colours, would light up, our day, if we’d take a minute to look or a minute to walk with our head up, and not with our head down, like we always do…

I hope, that these things aren’t just a dream, I hope, we can make a change and be friendly to Earth, it would be so much easier to live like this, than to be constantly stressed by all the things that doesn’t really matter. I truly believe that it would be amazing, if we put a little piece of solidarity, in our home, and I’m not talking about keeping our house clean, I mean, if we start now, we can make a difference, it would be the beginning of something bigger than us, a change, that will be remarkable, and will be remembered and thanked by our grandchildren, our nephews, our brothers and sisters that in the near future they too will be living in our mother earth, our home.  

So lost

Have you ever feel like if you were all by your own in this world?, well I feel like that in this exact moment of my life, I feel completely lost, I have no idea about what I'm going to do next, or what I'm going to do tomorrow, I don't even know what I want to be!, I bet that when you are 16 you already know what you want to be, but I don't I feel completely stupid, because, I have a lot of ideas in my mind but I don't know I can make them true, I mean I want to become a biochemistrician but there's a lot of math involved in that career and I know that I'm not that good on math, and I also wanted to become a writer, since I love writting stuff, I think that adequate for me, but I don't know, if I have enough imagination in me, to write a book, or something, maybe I can become a journalist, oh but I can't since they're all killed in Mexico and I have not enough money to move to another country, maybe I can work on the radio since I love talking about a lot stuff I would never get off of subjects, oh but I forget there's no jobs in Mexico, my life sucks, I feel like I shouldn't have been born in this country, but that it's a fact I can't actually change, and I ate that, because everyone thinks that we are just homeless people, caring a baby in our backs with a hat in our heads but we're a lot more than that, but anyone can see...

By the way I'm not even inspired I'm just mad with my self, I don't know what to do with myself at this moment...

Earth, our home.

Oh today is so cold, I think winter is rushing a bit, we're not even in December yet, well these are the consequences of the global warming, poor mother earth, what horrible thing's we've done to you.

I guess, that if we hadn't thought so much in our selves, maybe, it could be different, but different how?, different in the way we see the world, in the way we stand, in the way we live, because, it seems like nobody Care's about the beauty in the world, all the amazing flowers, all the amazing animals, all the charming thing's we're surrounded, but we can't see, 'cause, we've built like 123456765432 fabrics and buildings, that are leaving us blind of all the beautiful things we're losing. 

But, yesterday I was wondering, what can we do?, we can change the way we think, because, yes, we are going to overwhelmed our mother earth, and I'm not talking about a good feeling, I mean in the bad way, 'cause, what would do you, if someone is constantly putting stuff in your back, and their becoming heavier, and heavier, that you will get to the moment you wont stand that, you will come to a point, when you will say it's over I can't do it anymore, and that is what we are all doing to earth; and yet, we are all wining around about why, there was tsunami?, why there was a flood?, and answer it's actually obvious, why?, because we all made earth to cry, because, we're carring her with too many things.

So I figured out a way, that we can say thanks, to our mother nature, let's not think a lot in our selves, let's think about, our future, brother's and sister's that haven't born yet, 'cause I know that they would love to see, all the thing's we have saw, all the sea's, all the woods, all the beautiful cities, all the rivers, all the volcano's, all the mountains, etc; let's not think as earth as a place, it isn't a place, it's so much more than that, it's our HOME, and we're destroying it, and we have to stop doing it!; so every time you're about to throw a can, or a plastic bag, in the way while your driving car, or while your walking, take a minute and think, how many year's, would take that to become a part of the earth -disintegrate-?, Think twice, think about the consequences, how many animals would die?, how many kid's would be harmed?... A lot, so think in everyone, but your self, just for a little while, worry about the others, your brothers and sisters.

-Love, Lore-

Buried feelings

I'm so blue right now, that I couldn't think any were else to go, but my room, and take out my lap, and write something about myself.

I think my life is missing the happy part of it, I'm living my life, like if I had 40 year's or something like that, I don't feel like a 16 year old girl, I feel like a granny, my brain and my body, feels like that. sometimes not even my behavior is similar to a 16 year old girl, you may sound like if I was describing a creepy old woman with 27 cat's in her house, but I'm not I'm actually talking about me.

And for now on, I'll make a pact with myself, which is that I'll enjoy the little thing's, I will laugh harder, I'll take a minute or two to appreciate the life that I'm living because I'm really lucky to have this life.

I'll take time to realize the beauty of the world, with it's bad and good thing's, 'cause no one seems to care about the world, so I will,

I know this may sound like an invented story, or so, but it's not!. -I can't believe I'm going to say this but...- I never asked to grow, I know that is a natural process of life it self, but it's not OK, -it really isn't- you may be wondering why?. It's a easy answer, 'case growing up it's just like rolling in the floor with no clothes on, and I don't mean floor, I meant like the ground, with all the mud, stones, and dirt, and while you're rolling these thing's hurt you and you can't fight with them all the time, sometimes you have to stop fighting and just resist. 

 But what can I do?, when I talk to myself about this situation, I think that the only thing that I can't do, it's just stand it and live with it, because some day, I know I will be big!, and I will shine, -not like a movie star o anything-, I will shine with my smile, because I can!, and I will study harder so, I could make easier my residence in school, so for now on, these will be like a bible, every time I feel disappointed about my self, I will read this and I will remember that I can stand anything,

I can do it, 'cause I'm beautiful, and strong, I have more guts that all my classmates together, 'cause they didn't lived their childhood like I did, and because they didn't had the parent's that I had. - and I thank god, I have my parent's, with me, because without them I would be lost-.

So for now on, I will change my attitude, because I don't want to feel this way, anymore!.

Love, Lore.

PS: I really needed to share this with someone, 'cause I've been feeling sort of drowned, with this buried feeling I had deep in my heart.